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Does anybody REALLY know what they are doing?

Yes yes, it has been quite a while since I've posted. With lots on the mind, I've been inspired to blog again. Here's the punch line. Yes, what you have heard is correct. I'm moving back to The Netherlands indefinitely. It has been months worth of wondering whether I should really go through with this or if this is even the "right" decision. To me, crazily questioning this idea that I've had in my mind forever (wanting to live in Europe), is a huge sign that I should most definitely take action.

While eating Thai food with my best, I opened up about the thought I had a few months back while actually on our backpacking trip in Europe that it just felt "right" to live there. She could feel my energy and knew that it is exactly what my personal legend has in store. Spitting ideas and dreams out like we usually do, I said, "maybe I just need to quit everything and go." So... being the daring Scorpio that I am, I did it. And I did everything before even telling anybody. No body knew except my journal, my dog, Kaley and myself.

Can I just say... it has been one big process and one big headache at times too. It is so funny to me... how many different people come out of the woodworks to ask if this is really true. People I haven't talked to in months, years even... they call or text just to ask if it's true. So yes, it's true. Though it was terrifying to tell both of my absolutely wonderful jobs that I was leaving... telling my amazing parents and having quite a freaky reaction from them... (and a persuasive reaction in hoping that I will change my mind and just stay here, might I add)... to telling one of my best friends in the world, Collin, that I'm leaving him...... again. Let's just say, if I hadn't pre-decided that this was what I was going to do, I would definitely have been persuaded to stay here. 

I just bought a new car. One of my dream cars actually... A wonderful Subaru Outback that is quite amazing in the snow might I add... (I love snowboarding). And two months later, I'm turning right back around.. most likely losing money out of it.. and selling it.


Yes. Absolutely. 

I love to turn this question around... and ask myself, "Sure you're crazy Samijo... But ARE YOU IN TUNE WITH YOUR DREAMS?"

Yes. Even more so.

I don't write this blog for any other reason that you peeps can think of... but only in hopes that YOU might stop and ask yourself if you are doing what you want to be doing with your life.

Going back to the title of my blog.... does anybody really know what they are doing? To be honest, I don't think so at all. I'm currently sitting here in a Starbucks downtown, looking around at people of all sorts. People are SO interesting. SO interesting. I'm watching a hipster slurp on her whipped creamed frappucino.. watching a guy in pure frustration as he just dropped his newly made latte... watching a serious conversation with a couple who may have had an off evening this weekend... and watching a group of businessmen who (might I add) ALL look like they have sticks up their butts while hoping that their new idea might be a WORLD CHANGING idea.... a homeless guy who is absolutely more stoked about his first (and quite possibly only) meal of the day, while I am here nonchalantly drinking my Aged Sumatra coffee, as though it is not even an appetizer in my meal plan for the day. No. I don't think that ANYBODY really knows what they are doing.

We are all living day to day. Hour to hour. Minute to minute. And that's how it should be. We should all dream. We should all risk everything that we have. We should all go for exactly what we want to do in this life. No matter what it is. No matter who you are. No matter what your situation is.

This post is to the woman who is in her second marriage with thousands of very dear commitments in her life, even though her core dream... has always been to be in the peace corps living in a different country and making a deeper difference than she feels like she is making here. 

This post is to the boy who feels like he is in debt up to his chin in who knows what.. but hates where he is living and continues each day in shame, wishing that he would have stuck with his dream of writing and playing music... even though everyone around him knows that he could ABSOLUTELY change lives with his voice, lyrics, and instrumental abilities.

This post is to the mother who just lost her son. Wondering what the heck she could have done to change his mind... looking as far back as 40 years ago... wishing that she made different decisions based on the fact that she thinks it might have changed his decision in taking his own life. 

This post is to the lady who said she is vicariously living through the travelers and dreamers in this world because she is just so unhappy with everything that is going on in her life.

This post is to my boss, my coworkers, my parents, my distant but true friends, and my absolutely closest friends who believe in what is about to happen.

This post is to the girl who was abused and STILL feels like no one understands what she's been through.

This post is to YOU. No matter what on Earth your commitments, hardships and un-lived dreams are in YOUR life. This post is to YOU. May we all look at our lives and LIVE. Do what you want to do despite what people think you should do. Obviously everyone is unhappy... a lot of us live based on what others think we should do. How the crap does anyone know what you should be doing for you?

I 100% love what people think I should do. I just believe more in what I think is best for me.... if you ask me, once people see that you are doing what you are destined to do, then they will also realize that it's the best thing for you. (even if they already know this before you are even doing it.)

Anyway... like I said, this post is to YOU. Whoever you are. I love people. I love you.